Hi guys,
Figured I'd do a little explanation journal as to what's going on right now.
I graduated 2 weeks ago and since then I've been moved into my new place and searching for jobs.
It appears no one wants to employ me, just yet. So unfortunately this has taken a severe toll on my mental health.
So much so that for the past week I haven't been able to escape suicidal thoughts, my depression and the onslaught of panic attacks.
I've been talking a lot to my Mum through this, and honestly I don't know if I'd still be here if it weren't for her continued support. I know I wouldn't be here otherwise if it wasn't for her but still...
I just want to say that no I haven't restarted self harm, but I did got to the doctor today and I've been put on anti-depressants and by the sounds of it he thinks I have depression along with an anxiety disorder. This is something that I've had an inkling about for a long long time.
It took a lot for me to admit that I have a problem and needed help, I should have gone to the doctors a long long time ago. As I've said to a couple of friends who have been talking to me through this time, it's okay not to be okay.
And something that's recently come up is, it's okay to ask for help.
Unfortunately I'm not past my worst stage yet. Apparently it takes a couple of weeks or longer for the pills to kick in, and I will have to take them for a long period of time.
I'm not sure when I'll be arting again. I'm going to try to keep it up but I don't want to let small things like my art style get to me.
Thank you for your support guys. Much love to you all.
I just want to say that no I haven't restarted self harm, but I did got to the doctor today and I've been put on anti-depressants and by the sounds of it he thinks I have depression along with an anxiety disorder. This is something that I've had an inkling about for a long long time.
It took a lot for me to admit that I have a problem and needed help, I should have gone to the doctors a long long time ago. As I've said to a couple of friends who have been talking to me through this time, it's okay not to be okay.
And something that's recently come up is, it's okay to ask for help.
Unfortunately I'm not past my worst stage yet. Apparently it takes a couple of weeks or longer for the pills to kick in, and I will have to take them for a long period of time.
I'm not sure when I'll be arting again. I'm going to try to keep it up but I don't want to let small things like my art style get to me.
Thank you for your support guys. Much love to you all.